Say something...anything...

I have been trying to get in the groove of writing something here. Have so many things to say but don't know how to put them in words. I have had one child home with me all week-Ryan. He had surgery on his left foot on Monday after being injured in a basketball game. He is doing well and the pain is starting to dissipate. I am hoping that he will be able to go back to school on Monday. He is beginning to go a little stir crazy.

On other notes, I have had a funky week. I have truly started to question a lot about myself. Some of you don't know but I am a huge Fred Thompson fan. I did not know how passionate I was about conservative principles until I started wondering about the next POTUS. So, when he dropped out this week, I was, to say the least, devastated. Sounds down right ridiculous, huh? You don't have to tell me. I know. However, through the course of the last few weeks, I have "met" with many people who feel the same way. I have been "blogging" for Fred and for conservative principles. Please do not "judge" me, I will do my very best not to impose my views on you. Candace knows I don't do so well but I will sincerely try.

Anyway, so all this introspection and searching has left me slightly raw. I read some of the blogs of my friend/cousin Steffany and I feel so incredibly shallow. The people that make up this country/world through the blogosphere are so interesting and wonderful. I am praying for adoptions to work out, for friends to be rid of cancer that has invaded their body, for peaceful dying. For my children to heal, to be safe, to be able to be kids. I am praying for a school fundraiser to be a success, for the bible study that I am "leading" to be a blessing to those in attendance. I am praying for direction and for God to make His way for my life clear.

Bottom line: Fear of rejection is powerful but my God is bigger than fear. (Isaiah 41:8-10) Fear of opening one's heart to new friends makes me quake, but my Jesus says He is my friend if I follow His command to love one another. (John 15:15) Fear of Hillary Clinton/Bill Clinton in the Whitehouse is a fear of loss of freedom and liberty but my God says His perfect law gives freedom. (James 1:25) That's it folks, it is ALL about God and NOT about me. Still shaking so remind me of this later...

January 22, 2008

Today I am beginning. Tomorrow I will begin again. Our journey each day starts with God and what He ultimately has to offer...